Mission Accomplished

At last, my report has been done up for submission. Tomorrow will be a busy day with my co stocktake scheduled for nearly the full day. From past experiences, it should last 3/4 of the day. Maybe, I will stay back after that to clear some stuff before I am away for a week of reservist. Next week will be a test for everyone who has relied on me so much to know what they are really missing. Humans dunno how to treasure things when they exist. I think my news had spread to other people's ears. 2 people did called me, asking if I would like a transfer. In football, this is called illegal tapping. Haha. But, I appreciate their kindness and rejected them with grace. What I have created is a scene that many never encountered in their entire work life and some of them thought I have gone bonkers. I guessed everyone thinks its foolishness, but I feel a working environment should be friendly and accomodating. If workers respect mgmt, then they should get similar treatment. After all, everyone should work to make the company succeed. If a common objective is not reached, most often there wont be a success story to talk about. I know I will have another hard year to go by, but harsh decisions have to be made.

Sad Day has passed

I reached home after another exhausting day at work. I think I will be doing myself a favour by rushing things these few days, so I wont be squeezed on 31 Dec. If things go on smoothly, I will be able to see Paul, Darl, Rebec,Huiyu and ???? comes 2 Jan. Meanwhile, I heard some bad remarks about myself that makes me feel more convinced that my intention to leave was right. I am having good intentions for everyone, but others just like to see it in the negative manner. Furthermore. there was no team spirit and frequent demoralising statements, which made me feel deserted.
In the evening, I got an sms from a fren about a dinner appointment. It is a waste that I replied the sms too late, as I was too engrossed in my work. I shall make up to that fren, if we happen to have another appointment.
I only finished 3/4 of the things I set out to do, even though I self-forfeited my half day leave to try to buy more time. I promised myself to finish things properly before I hand over to any new colleague. Also managed to know who my successor will be. It is good that the person is someone I can communicate well.

Feeling Giddy

I went to work with a purpose to accomplish many things today. I presented my colleagues with the gifts when they are occupied. When they discovered it, they found it to be so sweet. They have also commented on my neat gift wrapping. Many thanks for that someone who advised me on getting those items. Haha.
Next, I saw many pending matters on my tray. As I was trying to start clearing things, there comes the phone call of the irritating SM. He would always ask, "how many registerable deals have we got?". I am not reporting to him and could care less to answer his silly question. How could I predict what the car sales could be like when I got no documents at all? I guessed he just wanted to be pleased by a certain figure, so I just let him know a ridiculous one to put his mind at ease. Haha.
Some interviewees came for the job advertised online. I hope they know what they are asking for and not regret joining our company. I passed the day feeling giddy, but I hanged on to finish my targetted work before I left office. I guess it is around 10.45pm? Haha. Everyone must be wondering why I am leaving but still so dedicated. I can only say that I have my own principles of working and it differ with the majority.

Big X'mas Tree Spotted

Just reached home after a short stroll in West Mall. The festive mood is still on, as all the christmas goodies are being displayed for sale. I came across a gigantic Christmas Tree in the centre stage inside, and took a big shot of it on the 3rd floor. I guess it is far bigger than the one I saw outside Paragon.
In the noon, I was out trying to get gifts for my nice colleagues. I told myself I must get them something which they cant expect, but the issue is I got no idea what older ladies like. I obtained some advices from someone, and thought it could really worked. Got all the gifts and came home to do some wrapping. I guess they would never expect a gift after Christmas. I just wanted them to know I too have a thought for them. This is the last christmas that I will be with them as colleagues.
Hmm. Paul has given me an invitation to a lunch with Darl and the rest on 2 Jan. Still thinking about how my preparations would be before I go reservist on 3 Jan. If I can make it, I wont disappoint anyone. I know Paul would be caught in a fix to make a reservation. If Paul is reading this, please reserve a seat for me and I would pay for my booking if I dont turn up on that day. Fair enough?

Gifts Galore

Although today is christmas, but it never seems to be that mood. Perhaps, it just falls on a Sunday. Tomorrow could be better. I opened up all the gifts that I received and had to pack them back to keep. Played basketball as I often do on sunday morning. Suffered many defeats, but it is all marginal. We did recovered our spirits and got the score even. Teamwork always make things work. Its a nice game to know more ball mates, but I am the most junior there i guess.
I had lunch at home, and wanted to catch the movie "Saw 2", which is horror type. But, there was no screening anymore. Hai. I got to rent the dvd to witness some bloodshed. Hehe. No choice but to settle for "King Kong", although I was afraid a long movie could make me fall asleep. However, the action and drama involved kept me glued to it throughout. I think if I am King Kong, I would fall in love with the lead actress as well. 3 Cheers to King Kong. Hehe. Another thing that captivated me was the green cornea of the lead actress's eyes.
One more day to rest before I work the following day. I must remember to get gifts for my colleagues, as a thought for their kind gesture.

Snow never falls

Merry X'mas to anyone who is reading my blog. I had stayed up to wait for any well wishes sm from friends. But, I know the sms network will burst as always after 12 midnight. Yesterday was a long day in office, though everyone is out celebrating. My colleague stayed with me to clear her stuff as well. I did all I could to put myself in a comfortable position next week, which is also a short week. It was saddening to hear that her appointment was cancelled due to a quarrel with her bf. Whereas for me, there was nothing to make me ponder about. The year 2005 will be coming to an end, but I am having a string of events which kicks off in Jan 2006. I think everyone is out having fun and I am jus passing another day. There were some gifts, which I opened to see. To my amazement, all the gifts have meaningful messages engraved on its surface to make them more unique. Thanks to everyone for sharing your joy with me. I will be shopping for their gifts on Monday, so as to express my thoughts for them as well. I hope they wont mind, as I am mostly in office and didnt provide time to shop for their gifts. I managed to book a car to use on Monday and hope it will come in handy.

Stomach Upset

I was on half day to go out with other colleagues who pre-arranged to take leave to go for a good meal. We decided to hav a buffet at royal scotts plaza singapore's cafe vienna. It was pretty costly per pax, but the food was worth the cost. Anyone may wish to try? We had a lot of discussion on the reaction of my employers to my intention to return to full time study. Most of them never expected nor wished that I would go. I guess I have nothing to hide and told them frankly that they have to be mentally prepared for my letter. I tink I am one silly employee to say this to my employers when everyone is waiting for the bonus. But, I could hardly care even if they dont wish to distribute any amounts due to me. I just needed an answer how the management valued me before I leave. I got many positive feedbacks that I am really a good colleague, friend and employee. I wanted my ACCA so much that I can forgo anything. It was just a waste that they never treated me as a dedicated worker, but wanted to turn me into a slave. The discussion just goes on till we are done with dining at 3 pm. We were asked if we could surrender our table, as there is a reservation for the high tea. We planned to get some gifts for our other colleagues when we go back office tomorrow. All of a sudden, I seemed to black out and had to rest while my friends went to shopped. We all headed home via MRT and I took a nap while travelling. When can I recover myself to my 100% energy level??

Deep Blue sea

2nd day overtime in running and I am half dead. I just cant stop fighting, even when my heart and brain dont go hand in hand. I got myself mentally prepared and sounded my intention to leave to my AM. He was shocked about my decision. Everyone thought I would be a sitting duck ready to be shot anytime. But, I have grown from my experiences. Just when everyone is expecting nothing extra for 2005, a "thank you" email came from the M for everyone in my dept about rewarding staff based on performance. Seems not bad at least. My good friends cum colleagues were teasing me about how fast they are responding. But, it was after all a joke. The irony was cutting costs, but giving small payouts? Nevertheless, I was prepared to get nothing out of it, but I know they wont be heartless to me. All friends told me my move was a silly one, but I just wanted to know how they really viewed me. If they supported me to move on, they would let me contribute to ease the manpower problems before I go. If they dont, they can kick me out just like that. I just needed an answer of how things will turn out. I just needed to show them that I am having the interests of the company at heart, by letting them plan how to handle my absence in advance. I guess I will be called up into the office soon....

Wall Street Opening

Just finished dinner after a long day at work. What I witnessed from my office mailbox last night turned out to be exactly wat I thought. Telephone kept ringing, sales kept pouring in, several invoices to issue and I cant catch my breath since I reached office. But, my smile is still maintaining by thinking what Darl always told me to smile. The difference is I am not smiling wholeheartedly. hehe. The managers just dont understand what is the meaning of just came back from leave. So, I took my priorities and cleared them one after another. Time passed so rapidly and everyone left without me at 6pm. However, I am at my best when I am alone. I managed to clear more work, to ease off my burden tomorrow. Got to start closing my late late late accounts. All due to overloading that caused me to lag behind when I was a front runner all along. My battery is fully charged to fight more battles for the next few days. Told a colleague about my big plan and he was astonished. He mentioned no one would expect it when the day comes. It just like hitting the jackpot without knowing it. I hope I wont be soft-hearted.

Fulfilling Day

Having a full day of leave to utilised, I had arranged to accompany my god sis to her afternoon appointment at TTSH. Due to a bad estimation of time, I arrived slightly late to see her waiting there for her turn. Hmm... She had to run consultancy, x-ray and back to consultancy. But, the end of it was the specialist can't diagnose anything from the x-ray film. So, she was asked to make a revisit for a more advanced scan. She felt it was a waste of time to have a re-appointment, so I encouraged her to have an end to the examination. I felt sad for her to go through this process, but her health has to come first. I had a cyst on my back for a long time before I got it removed for hindering me during my army days. We went to visit her relative, who gave birth to a baby boy. It was so adorable and my first experience at the babies dept in a medical centre. My mind was rather inquisitive and asked a few questions while observing. We headed for the mac at united square for a tea break to ease our slight hunger. We took the train and separated at cityhall to our own routes. Got some teasing from Darl during our train ride, but I expected it. Haha. Nice try and thanks for the concern, Darl!!! Dropped by West Mall to shop for some T shirts and laptop accessories. At the same time, I wanted to get the OST for "Perhaps Love", which I saw the movie with Darl, her sis and her friend. But, I was stopped as the price proved rather costly in Darl's opinion. I hope she can find a cheaper source. Hehe. Another long day has passed, but it has been fulfilling. Ready to face another battle in office tomorrow. However, I have not complete my report to submit tomorrow. Ironic???

Mixed feelings

A messy work desk was expected this morning, even as I only took half day yesterday. The sense of something wrong did turned out to be true. One car customer actually wanted to bid for a number for her new car. But, I went ahead to register the car without knowing about it.
I told the salesperson concerned and she insisted that I was blaming her for everything. She broke down in tears, but I kept telling her that our priority is to resolve the situation. But, she just kept going on sobbing. Since she cant think of anything but crying, I reacted by informing the registration dept and the GM. It was a relief that both were understanding and willing to assist me without asking anyone to bear extra costs. I acknowledged that I said harsh words to the sales person and apologised for my shocking behaviour earlier on. I gave her a call and told her that the situation is under control and I will remedy things with her cooperation required. In the noon, she came to visit me and we talked things out. I told her that other than my ex, she is the 2nd lady who cried for me. She was laughing about it and I was glad to know I have not lost the trust of any sales person.
After work at 5, I went to cityhall courtesy of paul's invitation. Met Rebec, Darl and Paul introduced me to other friends as well. I had a wonderful time, even though I cant sing at k box. Singing is never my forte, so I just sit back n relax to enjoy their singing. There were excitement and joy. Got to know rebec and Darl much better than being online friends only. I relinguished the memories of my group, which disbanded and never got contactable again. My luck has never been good, but I believe my friendship with paul is lasting, which I hope to be with my new friends as well.

Bad sights

I had my half day leave, which I couldnt utilised last friday. The work seem never ending, so I just left my office at 1.30pm. I had to rush home to wait for the delivery of my notebook at 3 pm. Reaching home, I found my brother sleeping on my bed in the afternoon!!! He is earning near 3K and dare to come home to laze without taking leave. So furious that I am working so hard to earn, but there is people like him who are just not contented. But, I know I will outdo him in the near future.
At 3, the Dell delivery man came and passed me the goods. Without letting me inspect the contents, he demanded that I sign receipt and let him carry on with his other deliveries. I just couldnt believe that I paid so much for this device and was not given 5 mins to check. Even the seal outside states so clearly "Check before signing receipt". I don't wan to argue further, so I just noted the name of the deliveryman for reference if any problem arise. Spent the rest of my time to set up the programs which I need to get things working. The inbuilded programs are not of much use and I replaced them with my trusted ones. Tomorrow will be meeting Darl, rebec and paul's fellowship. Hehe.

A ray of hope

Just back from the office. Another long day has passed. There were ups and downs in office everyday. I was glad to see a colleague who is an outside company employee based at our place, having recovered from her sickness and came back. I always see her face quite pale, but others told me it is her fair skin. Hahaha.
I came up with an idea to make my stand clear to the sales people once and for all. I proposed the idea to the GM and got his support to let the SM ensure things are done properly. I thought there is no harm trying for the benefit of everyone. I planned to draft an exhaustive checklist for them to avoid giving reasons for not knowing what is seen as proper documentation. Though I do accounts, my headache always come when sales admin matters are concerned. Hopefully, with the GM's word, I could turn things around for everyone. Some of the senior sales actually mentioned that it would be very helpful. This shall be my weekend's assignment using my new notebook.

Studies aside

Got up this morning feeling so refreshed. The study fever has gone away, and I have accounts to rush to close. My fellow sales colleagues were so anxious that I came back. After one of them spread the news, my extension became a hotline after 10am.
I was invited to go out for lunch with my 2 best colleagues. Work aside, but friendship is still strong. It has been a while, since I joined them. They highlighted to me about how things went on in the office. I stayed late to clear some backlogs which piled up during the last 2 days. All the managers wanted reports, and I cant cater to everyone concurrently. I only did my best to clear in priority of easiest to hardest preparation. Reached home and saw a mickey mouse key chain on my desk. It must be my brother who bought for me during his trip in Hongkong. I hope he enjoyed the honeymoon trip, as I transferred to him at a very high discounted price. I will go when the time allows and maybe alone...

A new start awaits

Had my dinner after reaching home from the exams. I don't know about the quality of my answers, but I did try to write as much as I can recall. I think I donated 10 marks to the examiner, jus like how generous I am in previous examinations. I shall await for the cruel reality comes end of Feb 2006. I appreciate those who sms me to wish me luck in the morning, especially my ex. I know things are sour between us, but this little thought of hers means alot to me.
My mum and brother are at loggerheads again, but I just ignore both. They just like to kick a fuss out of thin air. When they see how ignorant I am about their behaviour, the crossfire will just subside. Maybe, they just want to get my attention. Haha.
Tomorrow will be back to work again. Cant imagine the pile lying on my desk to clear, but I will take it easy from now on. I did sacrifice for my work at the expense of my own results. It just dont seem right at all.

Route to Success

Enjoying my lunch now. Jus sms Paul to come online, but he not interested. I shall forgive him for ignoring me. Hehe. I just discovered that I cant absorb wat i studied. The cause could be a short circuit in my brain cells. Haha. So the only resort left is to apply my practical knowledge when possible. Anyway, this examiner is aiming to test our appreciation of the subject, and not the facts. I could be surprised when the result is out next Feb.
Having access my co email, there are so many bombardments on my first day of absence. I can't imagine how I would be struggling again when I am back in office. Oh gosh, the clock is ticking off and I am still playing a fool. 5 more chapters to gooooo.......

Morale rising

Had a good day to continue my revision. My bro was playing games in my room to no effect on me. I dun know why, but everytime exams gets near, my morale just gets pumping up. It happens even when i can't master my materials well. Maybe thats is part of my success story. Be optimistic of your future.
Everyone is looking forward to 17 Dec birthday bash for paul. He is one fortunate person, with so many buddies. He is even willing to broaden my ring of friends by becoming a middle person. Thanks pal. I know he is struggling his revision, jus like me.
I had an uphill task to finish revising 12 chapters out of 18 for tuesday exams. Time is tight, but I can only make do with what I can. If I didnt make it, there is always another attempt. The last thing is to give up when you have not attempt.

Engine dead

Suppose to start my revision this morning. However, due to the late nights for the past few days, I hardly got a proper rest and my eyes cant tired for long hours of computing work. I cant study in such a condition, so I slept for a few more hours and woke up before noon.
There is this tv ad by Dell for a notebook at $1599 for purchasing online. Normal retail price would be $1899. I have been wishing to own one a few months back. The opportunity has come. Surfed Dell website to see the specs and did some monetary calculations. I guess its time to part with this sum of money. Placed an order with Dell and waiting for their confirmation.
Having a notebook is advantageous, as there are personal things which others cant share to view. Even though this hardware has been around for many years, many working adults still prefer it to a desktop pc.
I am still thinking if it is such a good thing to serve a notice next year. Maybe, its the exams and relation problems that made me feel so frustrated about other things. I have to reconsider again....

Wishes from Everyone

Everyone seems so concerned about me not being around for a few days. Some asked for my mobile, but I just don't wan to be disturb due to time constraint. I feel strongly for them as well, just like how they wish me well for my exams.

Reached home late again and glad to see some friends online. I been thinking how if I should cancel my half day tomorrow. I am sorry to everyone who is affected by my absence, but life is cruel at times. I cant be there for them always, just like how she can't be there for me. My morale is greatly affected, though hoping I can get through this last paper of this level. Wish BP good luck, as he sure needs it more than I do.

Putting up a brave front

Sales seems quiet compared to previous bidding days. New COE figures are out.

$13,700 for 1,600cc and below
$13,301 for above 1,600cc

Car prices are low, but inventory turnover is not moving fast. Seems related to the recent hike in bank loan interest rates. I wanted to help within my means to expedite delivery, but seems only a handful is appreciative. Wrote to everyone concerned about my leave and some wrote back to wish me luck for my exams. I had enough, and approached M to sort things out. Things are not within my control, but pressure is always on me. Basically, I report to several M and all of them don't know that I am being "shared". The best I can hear is to persevere, so let things be. But, I shall talk till they listen. Time to rest well for one last day to finish those messy things.

Rush Hours

My colleagues were down, and I had to fight a one man battle for 3 people at work. Seems pleasant until 11am, where the traffic starts to get heavy. Sales contract were flying in, reports are needed within an hour, lunch time has to be delayed to 2 pm, and the worst is no one knows what i am going through. The usual me is still smiling to everyone, regardless of how stress I am.
Hmm.. The challenge of the day is to handle a new sales person who is so full of herself that I told her straight in her face that she has to adapt to her work and not everyone adapt to hers.
Even when she complains to M, I will still state clearly my role. No more Mr Nice Guy when it comes to work. Its just whether you strive to learn or you want to rot.
I have to endure for another 2 days of hardwork, to set things right before I have my study and exam leave from friday noon till tuesday. COE bidding is closing tomorrow, anyone buying a car?

Is it fruitful or sad?

Just came back from office and telling myself that its too hard on me. Seems when you work, all problems are gone except for work problems. haha. Big plan will unveil soon, so just be patient.

Some sales executives paid me a visit, and gave me free consultation on relationships. They do care for me like a junior to them. One of them wanted to share with me that her relation was also as complicated as mine. But, she is married to the same person after a one year break. They had a grand wedding at Shangrila!!!

I was given a deadline by this friday to finish my work before i go on exam leave. Nothing seems impossible, but i will just give my best shot. Anyway, I shouldn't be handling it as I mentioned of my tight work schedule. But, it seems to be a not so positive feedback to them.

Love got no boundaries

I thank D for being the first to patronise my blog and placing a comment. I passed the day thinking about my priorities. I think I have done my best to love and do wat i can to sustain a relationship that I was so hopeful of. For a failed relation, both parties should be equally responsible. There should not be a one party's fault. I believe I had my flaws that were unknown to myself, but no rectification was allowed.

Countdown 9 days to exams. Preparation is underway, but progress is slow. BP know very well how I like to tackle exam stress. I approached my friends who I have not met for a year for a gathering. We used to meet on everyone's birthday, but just didnt know what happen. Everyone says busy, but I guess there should be time for at least a meeting. I hope I will at least see them once in this year. Haha.

A long working weekend

Wow, its my first attempt to create a blog for myself. Hmm.... It was a long day struggling my work and serving as a backup for the insurance girl who is having a company D&D on a cruise. Envy her for working for such a good corporation.

Heaven seems like making a mockery out of me. Love life has broken up, exams are approaching and work is piling up. I guess she is enjoying her life without me, but nothing would be better than with her by my side. According to my 2006 fortune, I will be facing a tougher year than this year. One thing for sure is my studies will be a big challenge.

Christmas is round the corner, and time to send out xmas cards to my friends. I lost many records on my pda and trying to get the missing data back by asking from anyone who i need info. When would be the best time to go for a shopping spree? Offers are everywhere, and wat do i need? Tomorrow must pay the pool a visit to burn some calories.