Marine Conservancy Park

Snorkelling Trip once again. The last one before we return to SG tomoro. Final D was the Marine Conservancy Park, where it is an island with 100,000 different types of marine fishes. The name has indicated that killing Marine Life there will be slapped with RM20,000 fine. Well equipped before we headed out to the clear blue sea. I had a full breakfast to make sure the fishes are also well fed. Some of my friends got bitten, but no fish wants me for a meal. But, I like to eat fishes. Haha.... The diver was swimming around to take pictures of people underwater. Sis was the photographer of the day, since she liked marine life so much. I just swam around to see the corals and try to spot unusual fishes. In the noon, the sun was scorching again. I gave the whole group a treat to some cooling ice cream. My banana split became a mango split, as bananas are out of stock. The monkeys around the island must have stolen my banana and split for themselves. Nightfalls and we headed for a small restaurant for our sumptous dinner. Had a group photo and started drinking session. A disco party, which was held at the beach. Party-goers were crazy.... I have inserted a link to my album for anyone's viewing. Please click on the below picture. Enjoy...

Being Man-handled

There should be a snorkelling trip to the Marine Conservancy Park, which we forgo. Too many people to go with. We delayed it for tomorrow, when the big group will not be around anymore. There was a massage parlour on the island. Sis wanted to try it out. We went for the full body massage. Costs RM120 per pax. There were 1 masseur and 1 masseuse. I selected the masseur, , whose built was much higher than mine. More Powerful. Haha. As he was massaging, he asked if i have a gf. Did I look like I hav one??? He told me he had a boyfriend instead. Ahhhhh........ I guess everyone can tell what he is already. But, his hands were really good for a guy. Hehe... Rest of the afternoon went swimming at the sea and pool. I was tanned and looked like a lobster. Received a phone call from Singapore. Very unusual, but it was a notice for an interview. My first after several applications. The lady wanted me to enjoy my holiday and be ready for the interview when I am back. I thought they wont wait for my return, but they were kind souls. My parents would be happy if they hear this, as they were worrying about my employment. Told sis about this, and we went to celebrate a new start to my career. More Carlsberg please!!!!!

Arrival - Day 1

Finally, the coach has reached the Merang Jetty at Kuala Terengganu. If anyone has noticed, the driver was racing with a petroleum refiller during the journey at night. I guessed everyone was sleeping soundly. We did reached safe and sound. Being given boarding passes for the ferry and took a 45 mins ferry journey to the deserted island. The sun was scorching. A welcome drink was served to us, which tasted like sour plum drink. The logistics personnel mentioned it could cure sea sickness??? Did a fast check-in after lunch to get ready for our first snorkelling trip at Pulau Lima. Not used to the snorkelling mask and breathing thru ur mouth. Tasted lots of salty sea water as a trade off. Went back to our room and totally exhausted. After dinner, there was a karaoke competition. A lady sang "Beauty and the Beast" and it totally sucks... Wondered who signed her up... I wasn't listening much, except drinking to my sorrows. Drank about 3/5 of a jug of Carlsberg and some sips of a ladies drink offered by my god sis. Name was "baylis on the rock"??? Am I drunk already??

Anticipation

The much-waited holiday trip has arrived. Busy with last minute packing, I need to be fully geared for the long trip. Last night, sis called me asking about my preparations. She asked me to bring my digi camera to save her some space for her bag. So anxious till she cant sleep. Haha. She likes snorkelling very much, while it's my first experience. Nevertheless, I would enjoy the trip with her company. The check-in time at Golden Mile Complex was 9.30pm. Met her at 9.15 at Lavender and she bought 2 cans of beer. She wanted to get tipsy and sleep throughout the coach journey. She knew I didn't like to drink, but she purposely handed me the other can. Bottoms up. This is the start of a drinking spree to come. The coach arrived late. Most of the agencies were closed except ours. The journey started off at 10.30pm and expecting to arrive at Merang Jetty 9 hrs later. We had a stopover at Yong Peng 24hrs to ease ourselves before the start of the long travel to Kuala Terengganu. Sis was sleeping so soundly, while I listen to my techno music.

Long Wait

Decided to accompany mum for her appointment at the polyclinic, in place of my dad. He wont hav to waste his annual leave in this manner. Got to wake up at 7.30 am with my eyes still unwilling to open. Dragged myself out of bed to get ready. Missed out on MSN for the earlier half of the day. We reached the polyclinic and spent a total of 3 hours to finish the appointment.
- 30 mins for bloodtest
- 10 mins for ECG test
- 20 mins for the test results
- 1 hr 40 mins to see the doctor for evaluating the results (dozed off)
- 20 mins for pharmacy to disperse the medicine.
A final conclusion for the time spent was "all tests were negative, please consume your medicine regularly and we will see u in 3 mths time" plus $94 medical charges. Came back and ate noodles for lunch. Eye lips began to shut and I slept till 3 in the noon. MSN time.. Ling was there to chat with me, as she worked. Zhi came online to my surprise. She shared her unhappy experiences with me again. Seemed her ex was trying to spite her more. She commented I was a good listener wor. Haha. I just let her know that if there is a chance, I would like to appreciate what she can do for her bf. Wondering how she felt when she heard this? Kept her accompanied till she decided to turn in. Ling had an unpleasant evening as well, which she mentioned.

Movie Day

Had the usual MSN chat with ling today. Her ulcer remained uncured. Worried for her, as the HFMD has been widespreading. I seem to have a few friends with ling as part of their names. Does my fate lies in this word? Just a silly thought. The weather turned bad. with heavy downpour in the late afternoon. I wanted to catch ICE AGE 2, since last friday. Each time I planned, the rain would spoilt my day. Made up my mind to go for the 7.20pm slot. Had my dinner at home, before making my way to the theatre. Not many people watching, except for young girls. I guessed working people would be feeling the blues. I was seated beside two girls, who were laughing non-stop. The movie was rather exaggerating in the motion graphics aspect. The silly sabre-toothed squirrel, Scrat, was still searching for his nut, ever since ICE AGE 1. As the storyline progressed, I was drawn into the emotional part of a mammoth risking his life to save his female counterpart. Even though it was a cartoon, I couldnt stop shedding tears when there were touching scenes. End of movie, I was the first to exit the theatre and hoped no one saw my teary eyes.

Shot by Arrow

Dad asked me to help my aunt fix up her new maxonline connection at CCK. I was thinking of the reason for choosing me. There were many others, who could fix that. Since I was free for the day, I accepted the assignment willingly. 大哥 rejected it straight off before I was approached. Went to search for my tools before I went to her place. Received directions to take 2 buses to her place. I settled for only 1 bus, since the distance via the 2nd bus was walkable. The problem to tackle was minor. However, they wanted me to fix additional things as well. Am I trained in IT? Nope. I tried my best to solve whatever I can, and left the place once finished. They were grateful for my help and offered money. I rejected it to avoid any indebtedness to them for future maintenance.

Island Exploration

Waited 2 weeks for this meetup with my army friends. Most of them were uncontactable after we ORD. Managed to arrange with Thing and Yong though. Thing was my room mate and is famous for having different GF each time we meet up. Haha. On the other hand, Yong is working as a process auditor, after he came back from Aust. The itinerary was as followed:
- Makan lunch at Wakaru East Coast (Yong's a/c)
- Played billard and bowling, (Thing's a/c)
- Went Suntec for Yong to purchase something
- Went Fisherman's Village for sumptuous dinner (My a/c)
- Went Changi Village to sight transvestites. But, none showed up to our disappointment.
- Climbed up Mount Faber to see if there was any funny business happening.
It took us nearly a day, since none of us have any matters to cater to. Thing gave us a lift back at the end of it, and we promised to meet up more often with the others next time. Yong offered to cook spaghetti for our judgement. Hope you wont regret it.

Non-Youth Dining Corner

Had an appointment with Paul and Jason to have dinner. The first time I saw Jason again, since we went Genting together. Heard tat he had left his employment again. I hope he can find his dream job soon. I am struggling myself. Hehe. Dining @ NYDC according to P's decision. I am undecided anyway. Main course for me was Mushroom Cheese Baked Rice. We had a hawaiian pizza to be shared among ourselves. A nice name for my ice cream, which is named "The Good, the Bad and the Ugly". P ordered "Heaven, Earth and Fire". But, I dun see any fire on it. No whip cream for Heaven, but only chocolate to represent earth. It is my guess for how the name came about. Rebec has missed this session, but we understand her schedule was tight. Got her sms that she was feeling unwell before she slept. Another time to ask her out perhaps. We continued our chat at Coffee Bean till it was closing time. Maybe, we got too carried away. Hardly stayed at Suntec till all the connecting walkways were all shut off. We took a longer route outside and were lucky to catch the last train.

Un-Pro Behaviour

I received a call from a job agency. Asking about some job details for my application. She mentioned that my last drawn pay seems rather high for a person with 3 yrs experience. I felt insulted. She could ask this from a few possibilities:
1 - She was questioning my ability to command that salary, or
2 - She felt I have manipulated the figure reflected, or
3 - She was not aware of the industry practice well enough.
The offer she gave was I should be expecting a salary lower than my last drawn to secure a job. Who in the world would do that? If I will get a lower pay, I might as well slog my life for my ex company. Haha. In my resume, I clearly stated that I was handling full sets accounts. But, she could not find it on the piece of paper. Very unprofessional in my view. How is she going to match a good job to me? She ended the call, leaving me with doubts of her abilities instead.

Square in the City

Even though I was tired with my lessons last night, I dragged myself out of bed at 8am. Mum asked me to join her for the JB trip. Big aunt and her daughter was coming as well. Reached Kranji MRT to meet them up before proceeding to JB. I exchanged SGD100 worth of ringgit to make some purchases over the causeway. We planned to head for City Square (CS) , which was within walking distance from the Malaysian Customs. While walking, there were many taxi drivers asking for business. Only smiled at them and carried on walking.

Arrived at CS at 11pm. Not much crowd, since it was a weekday. Started our shopping spree. I went to buy bermudas for my Redang Trip. Mum and Aunt bought goodies for bringing back. We had our lunch at Vois Restaurant. The whole meal costs RM60, which includes 4 soups, 4 drinks, 3 lasagnia and 1 chicken chop set. Satisfying for me, but not the rest. They were not used to consuming western food. I thought it's good for a change for them, but it proved otherwise. Carried on with my shopping after we were finished. Bought a few t-shirts before we decided to headed back home. There was an uncle who was shouting vulgarities in the bus. Felt disgusted...

Bruises & Bang with Guilt

It was a rainy Sunday morning. Had an basketball session with 大哥 and his friends. It was meant to be a friendly game. But, I was hit by the ball several times when I mishandled the ball from my team mates. Tough luck, but it don't occur often. One bad incident happened. This moment which I was in control of the ball, the opponent tried to steal in from my hands. I managed to avoid the steal. Instead, his entire face hit my elbow. His nose was bleeding and a deep cut on his lips. It was unintentional, but I was remorseful of it. Many friends told me it's common to get injured and he was over aggressive. I didn't continue the game and sat down in one corner. Jus watching. Came home before lunch. While bathing, I noticed that my elbow had a cut as well. It has been bleeding after we clashed. My wound was superficial compared to his. I had my injuries in the past with none of this severity. Spent the remaining part of the day feeling the guilt.

Red Paint All Over

Picked up the Vios early morning at 9 am and fetched my 大哥 and 大嫂 to bring them for the HDB WIS. They sat behind with my mum, while my dad was with me on the front. Seems I will be driver for the day. But, I like driving. Pardon me for being selfish, but 大哥 says that he will let me practise more parking at different places. Hehe.
First Stop - Bukit Gombak. 大哥 didnt like it, as there won't be sun heat to dry the clothes fast enough. A kind auntie did let us have a view of the interior of her flat. Teck Whye next. The flat was a repossessed unit and seems like someone has bought the flat. 3rd stop was Choa Chu Kang. The showflat for the 5 room had nice decor to come with, but the price tagged to it was pretty as well. $263,000 is not worth for the inconvenient location. The last stop was Bukit Panjang. The unit was on the 12th floor. Lift opened and we saw the words 欠钱还钱 $$$$. The unit no. 34. Seems familiar to us. Approaching the exact unit, I was shocked. There was red paint splashed all over the door and the walls for that unit. For any new buyer, it would not make any sense to take this unit. 大嫂 seems pretty disappointed about having no choices. I suggested to apply for the Build to Order units instead. But, the final decision is theirs. I will face their dilemma when my turn comes.
Second half of the day was spent at home, doing more job searching and listening to songs. Heaven is always not on my side, as the sky darkened when I planned to go swimming. Haha. I have to defer plan tomorrow. Managed to know a new friend though. Nice person to talk to and hope our friendship will flourish in future.

Wheels necessary??

I logged into the msn at late morning, just to discover my good friend wasn't there like usual. Was she occupied by work? I managed to contact her to know that she was on MC. Continued my job search online, but not much good openings. Am i setting my expectations too high? There is still time to wait for a better job. 果条汤 for lunch. Nasty elder brother was at home when I returned. How can he come back to sleep during day time? He is just not working hard enough, as he works in the sales line.
Late noon, eldest bro sent me an sms to ask if I can get hold of a vehicle for him on this Saturday. His chance to pick his ideal home has been awarded and he has several places to go to. I wish that he will choose a location that is nearer to my parents. His initial plan was to get a unit in Punggol, which is inconvenient for both himself and 大嫂. My parents want to accompany him for the search as well. I had to placed a booking for the car for their sake. Maybe, I could join them for the trip if I have no appointments.

Higher Stakes Expected

Woke up late this morning at 10 am to organise my study notes, which were given during last evening class. Looking at how thick the notes are compared to my last semester's exams, I had to draft a plan to revise as early as possible. My pal would be taking up another 2 papers, other than this one. I hope he would manage his time well enough, as he will be facing a much much tougher time to get through those.

Has been putting on weight for quite some time. I decided to make a switch to my usual meaty diet. Had porridge for lunch instead. I heard news that my ex company has not prepare my testimonial and last pay cheque. Happy waiting. A hearty chat with mum about family issues. My brother came back for a hour surprisingly. Never talked to him, as he still behaved as arrogant as before. I hope he is learning his lesson well from this experience of moving out. Went to the library to browse some books to clear some queries. Envying those students who wandered around at the mall. I never did that, while I was studying. My internet connection failed me, resulting on some troubleshooting work to be done. Received a surprise good night sms from my confidante.

Congrats to Team Singapore

Wow, a big congratulations to the Team Singapore Women's Team Table Tennis that clinched a gold medal at the Commonwealth Games. I hope other S'porean competitors will be inspired by their performance to obtain more medals for our country. Go Go Go!!!

7 Songs @ This MoMent

This music tag came from Elaine, while I was paying a visit to her blog. Thanks for getting me involved. Hehe. The 7 songs that I have been captivated by:

1) How do I live - Trisha Yearwood

2) When you say nothing at all - Ronan Keating

3) All by myself - Jamie O'Neal

4) If you're not the one - Daniel Bedingfield

5) 爱情轮廓 - 许慧欣

6) 谢谢你让我这么爱你 - 柯以敏

7) 一次幸福的机会 - 刘若英

What I have listed are not totally new songs. Whenever I do listen to the above, my mood will be deep immersed by the lyrics and some memories will be renewed.

Bloggers who I wished to tag on:
- Paula
- Aidah
- Rebec
- Darl
- Lingsi (if she does blog)

A Harbour to be Remembered

Over the weekend, the movie "Pearl Harbour" has been shown on television. Did anyone catch it? The show was split into 2 time slots (part 1 on saturday and part 2 on sunday). I love watching war movies. A few which I have watched were Hitler, Band of Brothers, Saving Private Ryan, The Thin Red Line, Black Hawk Down, etc... The interest arose when I had to study history during my schooling days. Don't be mistaken that I am supporting the call for war in real life. My strong belief is a confrontation should never be the first solution to a problem. Seeing all the sufferings on screen made my tears rolled.

Why was Pearl Harbour attacked and the significance?

Eighteen months prior to Dec 1941, President Franklin D. Roosevelt had transferred the United States Fleet to Pearl Harbor as a presumed deterrent to Japanese agression. The Japanese military, deeply engaged in the seemingly endless war it had started against China in mid-1937, badly needed oil and other raw materials. Commercial access to these was gradually curtailed as the conquests continued. In July 1941 the Western powers effectively halted trade with Japan. From then on, as the desperate Japanese schemed to seize the oil and mineral-rich East Indies and Southeast Asia, a Pacific war was virtually inevitable.
By late November 1941, with peace negotiations clearly approaching an end, informed U.S. officials (and they were well-informed, they believed, through an ability to read Japan's diplomatic codes) fully expected a Japanese attack into the Indies, Malaya and probably the Philippines. Completely unanticipated was the prospect that Japan would attack east, as well.
The 7 December 1941 Japanese raid on Pearl Harbor was one of the great defining moments in history. A single carefully-planned and well-executed stroke removed the United States Navy's battleship force as a possible threat to the Japanese Empire's southward expansion. America, unprepared and now considerably weakened, was abruptly brought into the Second World War as a full combatant.

Sepang Malaysian GP

The annual Formula 1 GP at Sepang has ended and the results were not what I wished for. This circuit is one of the most challenging ones, due to the weather's humidity and different applicable pitstop strategies. My fav driver, Kimi from McLaren Mercedes, was forced to retired without even finishing the first lap. He has been a speedy driver, without luck for most of 2005 and now even in 2006. It was the fault of the Red Bull racing team Christian Klien, who drank too much Red Bull to brush poor Kimi's car off the track. Nonetheless, Renault has proven to be a strong team right from the start. What is their formula for stability in a car? I seldom witnessed their cars having mechanical failure. Michael Schumacher had his hands full trying to overtake his own team mate from Ferrari. But, I know from past yrs that the McLaren Mercedes team will be stronger after the first few races.

Results:
1st - Giancarlo Fisichella (Renault)
2nd - Fernando Alonso (Renault)
3rd - Jenson Button (Honda)

Snorkeling Trip Booked

A 3pm appointment with my god sis to have a look at the travelling packages at Golden Mile. We planned to go on a Palau Redang Trip in mid April. It also meant I shall be starting work only after this trip, if there is any job being secured within this period. I met her at Lavender MRT at 3.30pm instead, as she was held up by her earlier appointment. Her ex wont be joining us and its up to us to decide if we wanted to carry on this adventure. My sis got no problem sharing the room with me. Thanks for the trust, which I also have in you. We went through the offers from some travel agencies, but couldn't get a good offer which distinguished from the rest. In the end, we headed back to Trans-Star Travel to make a booking. We chose the package for 4D3N at a cost of $350 per pax. A standard room was chosen, instead of the sea view room, to allow us to extend our stay for another day without additional overall cost. The lady, who processed our booking, asked me for my contact number for a total 4 times. My sis was laughing that she was trying to know me better and I thought so too. After the procedures were done, we went to Junction 8 for our dinner. Sis treated me to a KFC meal, which was sufficient to fill my small tummy. We bought new goggles to start training ourselves for the snorkeling trip. She warned me that it would be very straining physically. Looking forward to this first trip with this adventurous girl. Who knows if it could lead to future trips to elsewhere.

FBI as a Nanny?

In 2000’s “Big Momma’s House,” Martin Lawrence had his “largest” role ever, as an FBI agent who is a master of disguise. To trap a brutal bank robber, Lawrence went deep, deep undercover – impersonating a fun-loving granny known as Big Momma. Now, Lawrence is back as the boldest, biggest, and baddest Momma ever, in the mother of all comedies: BIG MOMMA’S HOUSE 2. This time, Lawrence transforms himself into Big Momma to avert a national security disaster. But saving the country is the least of Big Momma’s problems, as he takes on his ultimate challenge – being nanny/housekeeper to the suspect’s dysfunctional family.

This movie would be interesting to those who are seeking a good laugh. For the sake of his friend who died during the course of carrying out his duties, Lawrence had to forsake his family to carry out the unfinished work. Before he was given the job as a Nanny, he eliminated 3 other candidates for the job. How did he eliminate the others?
Nanny 1: Boobs too big and will prove to be a seduction to the kids' dad.
Nanny 2: Told a lie about being a child pyschologist previously.
Nanny 3: Carried a gun for protection.
Lawrence also managed to develop closer family ties within this family. There was a child in this family, who liked to jump off cupboards, beds, high areas to land face flat on the floor. I don't understand why the kid liked to do that. So painful even for adults to do suicide jumps. Overall, this movie is worth a go watching.

Home Sweet Home

Came online to check on my friends' blogs, which I have missed for 3 days. Very inconvenient to have no internet access in other places. I am used to staying in a high-tech country, such that adapting to days without internet was hard. Haha. Along the way back in Malaysia, I was sitting beside Paul in the coach. His face turned pale and he felt like vomitting. What should I do? Only passed him a bag for clearing the waste materials. It was a relief that he felt better thereafter. I had my MP3 player to accompany me throughout the journey. Reached the Singapore customs for clearance at 9 plus in the night. The coach driver gave us an option to alight at Tang Dynasty, but I couldn't catch any transport from there. The other stop was Golden Mile. Took train back with Jason, while Paul took a cab himself. HP battery was flat and needed charging. Saw her sms asking if I am back home, and gave her a call. We shared a nice conversation and her voice sounded sick. So poor thing to work so hard without drinking water and toilet visit for the whole day. I can't survive long in that manner. Her friend's call came and we had to end it. Its nearly a mth since we chatted.

Voyage to Highlands

It was 5.15am. The alarm went off and I dragged myself out of bed. Got to catch the coach at Golden Mile Complex, as boarding time was 6.30am. Didnt have time to have breakfast and bought takeaways instead. Got on the bus on time and we were on our way. It was luckily that the coach took the 2nd link route and customs clearing was a breeze. I brought out my takeaway, hoping to fill up my empty tummy. But, the driver gave a negative remark. I understand his reason for saying that and kept the food till our break at Johor. Slept and occasionally took a peep of the outside view. Upon reaching Genting at around 2 in the afternoon, we checked into Genting Hotel and did some wash ups. A sushi restaurant was our destination for lunch, and the bill seems reasonable. We took a short walk around and night falls shortly. Took an early rest to enjoy more tomorrow.

Prep for the Highlands

Awakening and feeling lost, as it is my first day without a job. Haha. My intention is to take about a month of rest, if I could. At the same time, I will search for jobs and attending interviews if there is. This period of rest should be adequate for my 1st half revision of my paper 3.2 ACCA. I guess paul is envious that I could spare time to revise my studies properly, but at the expense of no income. Haha. I did some calculations and my finances is still manageable during my quest for a better job. I had to pack up my things for my Genting trip tomorrow. The arrangement is to stay overnight at paul's house to faciliate early departure in the morning. Received a few calls from my understudy to clarify her doubts. I assured her that I shall not leave questions unanswered if she wishes to ask. Arriving at Paul's place at about nine at night. We talk and talk till everyone dozed off.

Bidding Farewell

I felt very emotional to see Komoco building for the last day, as I reached office early. No one has arrived and I closed my eyes to visualise the office scene which I am used to. My fren did told me that I would be missing alot of the good memories. Anyway, memories are meant to be kept. The first surprise of the day was the gift presented to me by my financial controller and regional finance manager. Both of them appreciated my services for the company, and wanted me to study well to get my ACCA soon. I offered to buy some old and new colleagues lunch at Mac Ridout Gardens. Everyone was teasing me about becoming a wealthy man in the years to come. I hope it will come true eventually. After we are back, I was still occupied with teaching and the ladies are panicking.

At about 4pm, I had to forgo all my tasks and went around the building to see other colleagues. First stop is the Chrysler Jeep showroom. All the sales personnel, including the sales manager, were waiting there. Some of the females sprayed their strongest perfume on purpose and hugged me tightly, as they knew I am sensitive to their scent. Naughty Carol planted a big kiss on my cheeks, and I was blushing totally. It has been frustrating to handle their cases, but I will miss their cheerfulness. They got me a big gift nicely wrapped up and I thanked them for their warmth farewell. My sales manager also gave me a BIG bear hug and I could hardly breathe for a moment. Haha. He can be a nuisance, but we managed to work well despite our differences. 2nd stop is the service centre. The mechanics and service manager took turns to wish me well before I headed back to my own department. It is knocking off time and my colleagues also wished me the best and not forget them. I assured them that I wont for sure. On behalf of the majority whom I know, the secretary presented me with another gift which all of them have contributed. Totally loss of words, as the previous colleagues who left didnt get all this treatment. I couldn't say farewell to everyone due to my time constraint. I had no choice but to pen an email to bid farewell before i depart. Nice to have all these happenings on my last day.

Operational Readiness

Heard bad news this morning about my colleague being admitted into SGH. It was expected to happen, but no one expected it to be so sudden. My manager came to my desk and told me this. I knew she was going to tell me to extend to help to cover the duties in his absence. I gave her a blank stare. She mentioned she has no choice but to approach my help, as I was the only one who have done his work before. With no new job offers, I am in a neutral position on whether I can extend further. Many of my colleagues would be happy if I stay on, as we will still be lunch partners. There is another group who feels i should go. Why is my first resignation so hard to implement? But, it is understandable, given the opportunities which I had in the company. The work is manageable and I shall be able to help them in some way. I need to discuss with the management on their backup plans tomorrow. Nevertheless, my Genting Trip will not be affected by this.

Recuperation

Woke up at 10.30am and my parents were not around already. After a whole week of training for the ladies, it was my turn to get some precious relaxation. I had come to realise why my other colleagues left the company earlier than me. I was like a trainer, having to hand over my work and train other freshies as well. After all, I was the only senior around which could impart my knowledge to them. Settled my lunch at KFC westmall and bought a Linksys Wireless Router for providing internet access for my laptop. Otherwise, I cant operate my notebook without internet anyway. A small cost for future convenience. I shelved my plan to catch a movie alone, considering March is a non-income generating month. With no disturbance around, I revised a bit of my studies. My brother left home for a few days already, but I dont miss him. Perhaps, he has done too many bad things than good ones in the past. He behaves like a macho man, but in fact he is plagued with debts. Haha. I do envy him though, as his gf stays with him during his tough times. For me, what do I have? I shall see how my future goes. Last heard from her yesterday that she was heading for Johor, and no news ever since.

A Moment of Folly???

The answer could be surfacing since the incident happened on 10 Jan. I made a declaration to a girl who I felt so comfortable with. I told myself to dare to dream. The scene was painted in such bright colours. I felt the hope for a better relationship. For the past 2 weeks, was there a missing game? Clueless. Sms started to go missing, and her presence in my life started to vanish. She could be occupied and I do missed her. I don't wish for all this longing. But, the sequence of events have made us more drifted apart. My feelings are mixed up. The below lyrics could describe what I am feeling for this moment.

想用一杯latte把你灌醉

好让你能多爱我一点

暗恋的滋味

你不懂这种感觉

早有人陪的你永远不会

看见你和他在我面前

证明我的爱只是愚昧

你不懂我的那些憔悴

是你永远不曾过的体会

为你付出那种伤心你永远不了解

我又何苦勉强自己爱上你的一切

你又狠狠逼退我的防备

静静关上门来默数我的泪

明知道让你离开他的世界不可能会

我还傻傻等到奇迹出现的那一天

直到那一天你会发现

真正爱你的人独自守着伤悲

曾经我以为我自己会后悔

不想爱的太多痴心绝对

为你落第一滴泪

为你做任何改变

也唤不回你对我的坚决

痴心绝对

Mysterious Appearance

I went to work as normal, although i should not be in office theoretically. Some colleagues saw me and thought I was not aware that my last day was yesterday. I replied that I had forgotten that today should not be a working day. Haha. I kept it unknown to most people on purpose, knowing that they would disturb me if they knew I was around. Too bad, my colleague went to tell some people upfront. She betrayed my trust. My 2 understudy are beginning to malfunction with each other. Only god knows how both of them can compromise each other's work. It wont be my problem to make them click. Who knows? Maybe, they crack under pressure and resign before my last day. Haha.

Another issue I have been thinking for the past 2 weeks. Is my friendship with her just a mere 2 months' affair? I feel that she is becoming like a stranger to me after v day. Even as I wish to try, I think I dont even hold a place in her heart. I don't want to dream of anything from now on. I guess I have to move on for a girl whom I can love wholeheartedly.

Last Date Extended

One month ago, it has been my plan to have an end to my current job. But, the circumstances have changed and I was given an option of extending. I gave it a serious thought over the weekend and decided to approach my managers about an extension. I was the first to reach the office as normal. Drafted an email to serve as a written request. I did receive an approval from the manager shortly after. My understudy was relieved about my decision. Some colleagues came to know about this and asked about my hesitation. It's just a small favour which I can do for my company. From now till 9 Mar, I would be just sitting around to see if the ladies encounter any problems. Another colleague, whose work has to be checked by me, did a silly thing. I was frustrated, but just kept it to myself. Why cant she exercise caution when doing her work? It was just a choice between a yes or no, and she could hit the wrong button. Whole day occupied with guiding people and clearing audit queries.

Crazy Mobile

Has anyone had problems with a Motorola phone before? I check that my settings are proper, but most people who called me do not get a response on my mobile. I have disappointed so many friends, who mentioned the problem started when I switched my mobile. However, I tested myself and it was ok. Perhaps, the service provider M1 has some problems recently?
Had a long day at work till 6 pm in the office. Went for a hair trimming. Reaching home, I sms her and saw her online. A no holds barr talk about how the past 2 weeks have been for both of us. She mentioned we are developing a distance between us. I was shocked. Knowing her schedule has been tight, I felt I should not bother her. I thought I had done the right thing to let her concentrate on her work. Instead, I changed her opinion about me. In the past, I bothered a girl during the course of her work and she was pissed off. So, I thought sometimes backing off is also good. Now, a different person and a different situation. Why are my actions bringing discomfort to others?

Twists of Fate

How many twists can I face this year? At the beginning of the year, I was sadden about knowing my results by end of Feb. Hence, I decided to forgo my work for my studies. I targetted my last working day as 28 Feb to catch up my studies after that day. Last week, the results were out. I did made through that paper. I felt lucky for the amount of effort, which I had put in. Yesterday, some colleagues were asking me to extend my last working day for another 2 weeks. Even the 2 new understudy were also asking me to do them a favour. 2 managers spoke to me this morning as well. Should I really helped them? I don't know. Should I turn my back on everyone, which I cant bring myself to do it? But if I really extend, there are some normal duties which I am unwilling to attend to. I am very confused. Like in the past, I always hear negative comments about others who left. By extending, will anyone appreciate it or I will still earn myself more negative comments? I spent the whole day pondering, even as I still need to coach the 2 ladies. I guessed everyone wanted me to help the ladies, but who has ever spare a thought for me????

2 New Understudy

This morning came another lady to join us to be my understudy. She would be entrusted with the sales admin work, which I had handled. Yesterday, one lady has joined and she will be handling my accounts work. It's tough for me to teach 2 people at one go. But, I am trying hard. Both ladies are sad, but I hope I can make them stable before I go. I have waited for a long time before they finally joined. So much time wasted due to some employment inefficiency. Ladies be assured that I will still help even after I leave the company. I was delayed for classes for some vehicle deliveries again. Joined the class at 7.30 pm, with an empty stomach. Anyway, this lesson was the last before a 2 weeks break. My buddy was there to lend me his notes for copying the earlier part of the lesson. Thanks. We were discussing about the Genting Trip, which we will be going. I hope I can refresh myself during this trip to take on new challenges for the rest of the year. He had paid upfront on my behalf, but I told him to claim using a petty cash voucher. You should know the rules, pal? Just a small joke, as I did the fund transfer to his bank account after I reached home. She started to sms me again, after a period of long lost communication. If there is just a good night message, it would be sufficient to warm each other's heart. I wish we will try to maintain contact, even when we are busy with our own work. You will be missed upon, not to worry.

JB Plan Abandoned

Today's plan should be in JB enjoying a movie and some good food. Starting to feel if it was all fated? Whatever we planned, there would be hiccups. I knew that it was hard for her to push away her friend's appointment, so I told her to meet her friends instead. I should be able to occupy myself with things to kill time. There was a meaningful sms from her "We should be enjoying the time together if not for my friend." It was a consolation to hear this from her. Enjoy your meeting and don't be upset about this. We can always plan again if there is another opportunity. Instead, the time was spent on marketing with my mum and revising my studies. Still have a long way to catch up to current chapter. It's better to start now than never. Took a few hours nap and woke up around 7 plus at night. Listened to songs, while reading some frens' blogs. It's late but never hear from her since the last sms at 2 pm. Should I be waiting for her reply to my sms or should I proceed to my bed? Let's see which occurs first.

Surprise Surprise

Called her early morning to see if she is alright. She has been occupied recently and no phone calls for the whole week. It will be good to hear her voice for a second. Finally, she picked up the call. Her voice sounded tired. I asked her to catch more sleep. I had to clear more work, in preparation of the new colleague who will be succeeding my work. I don't wish to pressure her, although I like to. Haha. With my current duties being segregated to 2 pax, she should be in a comfortable position. Sales has started to picked up, but how many more will I be processing? They can throw as many as they wish to. The LTA system is changing on 1 Mar, which is the first day that I am no longer in office. The sales personnel thought I may have insider news to plan my exit on the day the old LTA system cease working. Nice guess but there was more to it. End of the work day at 6pm, my phone ext rang. Must be one of the sickening sales disturbing me again. Nope, wrong guess. It was her. I was speechless, since she mentioned she would be busy from noon onwards. She asked if I wanted to have dinner and I agreed wholeheartedly. Nice nice. No work tomorrow and in no rush to go home. We took a short walk to the mall near her place. Had dinner at Grillers. We would always share a portion of our own food with each other. Spent 2 hours updating each other about the past few days happenings. I didn't know she would react so strongly to a fren's comment. But, its nice to listen to her heart-felt words. Saw her back home and waited outside for her to snap some pictures using my mobile. Once I got back home, I transferred the pictures to her for her safekeeping. I hope tonight will have a sweet sweet dream, unlike last few worrying nights.

Farewell Lunch

My bosses wanted to give everyone, who have tendered resignation, a farewell lunch. Overheard one of the bosses saying that the menu must suit their taste. I was thinking if the lunch was meant for them. Nevertheless, they were still disillusioned that rehiring will be a solution to their problems. They drove us to RELC's Tang restaurant. The other colleagues were happily discussing about their plans after their departure. I didn't want to say much, as I loved my work very much. But, I was forced to hate it. I detested it. They would never understand why I left. NEVER. The bosses even mentioned I looked fresher than before. But, deep inside my heart, I am troubled. Work, studies, money, relationship and family were all my concerns. Too many things that no one can understand. I will solve them eventually, one after another.

Va~Learn~Time

It's the annual lovers' day. It has been a few years, since I last spend this day without being loved. But, my lecturer has everything planned for everyone. She didn't change the schedule to allow people to enjoy this precious day. But, for rejects like me, I don't know if I should feel grateful. Anyway, my date did have something else to occupy her. It was still a nice thought of hers to accept my date initially, but I couldn't honour it. It just clashed with my lesson by coincidence, and I asked her without knowing it in the first place. I hoped she enjoyed her own date as well. Did she like the little surprise which I have planned ahead?. My apologies for keeping her in suspense, even when I told her to expect something. Haha. My class ended much later at 10 pm, with a "Happy Valentine's Day" from the lecturer. Sounds both funny and sarcastic. The journey back home took so long. Buses were mostly packed and I reached home around 11.30 pm. Received her sms to call her, but I rejected her to let her rest early. Wondered if she had enough rest???

Events to Ponder Over

Working for half day and a carefree afternoon to follow by. Don't know if I will be meeting her. Everything was in suspense, which left me hopeless. I could only wished for her reply soon. She did replied to indicate that she has to run some errands till about 1 pm. I waited in office for her to give me the timing to meet up. Luckily, I had the card and the small token with me. She was in a rush and I waited for her at Bugis. Went to buy some eye drops at Guardian for eye cleansing. My eyes needs frequent cleansing recently, as it becomes tired easily in office.

She arrived shortly and gave me the card with a small gift in a bag immediately. She handed over the things like she wanted to get rid of those for a long long time. Haha. I had to hand mine over as well, to make space in my backpack. Had lunch together at Swensen, but she seemed bothered by some things. I couldn't figure out the rationale, as I felt its unavoidable. We had a short walk to another area to get away from the place where she couldn't stay for another moment. Along the way, she was still rather disturbed. Her mood was totally dampened, and I had no choice but to see her home. She wanted to talk later in the night, but I told her to rest herself well first. I could wait for her to beep before i call anyway.

Reached home and opened the card which she had self made. The words written were beyond my expectations, which I could sense the emotions involved during her writing. How about her emotions when she reads about mine? I could guess, but only she can confirm my guess. The small gift was a heart shaped candle. Would it carry a meaning? I am still trying to figure out. It was around 11 pm, but she can't be contacted. Probably she went asleep without turning off her mobile. I had to catch some much needed sleep as well.

Dinner Date Cancelled

Left my house in the morning, I brought out my digital cam and the things I needed to pass to her. We had a date, planned a week ago. I had set a goal to finish my accounts before today to meet her up for a dinner. The location was Boat Quay. She wished to have the korean food there. To me, it was another new kind of food to try. The setting was nice to enjoy a dinner with someone I enjoyed her company. I hoped to let her read my card, while i should get to read hers. The feeling was worthwhile awaiting. At 10 plus in the morning, someone called my extension. It was her voice. A piece of sad news followed by good news to lessen the impact. She needed to attend her friend's birthday party, which she had missed out completely. I guessed I could make use of my time after work to rest at home, which my body badly needed. Being someone who often sacrificed myself for the benefit of others, I told her I could take care of my own time and she could just attend the party without worries. Anyway, her friend's annual birthday would certainly prioritised as compared to our meeting. She promised to arrange another time to make up for today's appointment. After work, I went back home and my parents were so surprised to see their precious son back early. Mum was pampering me with food, fruits and medicine. The medicine took its effect and caused me to sleep...

Hunt for a Card

Knocked off early today at 6.30pm to search for a valentine's day card. However, the recipient would be a different person. Went to several shops, but couldn't pick a card with the proper wordings. In the end, I picked one which had more hearts than words. Haha. I thought I should have a small token to go with the card as well. I hope she will appreciate the little thought from me. Came back and saw my brother occupying my room to play games again. Ignored his presence and sat down to write my thoughts in the card. Mum came in and took a peep. Ops Ops. She knows I am a sentimental guy all the while. I did something weird in the card, creating a heart with my name written behind it. I hope she will get the meaning, if she reads the card tomorrow. I guess she will, since she always blushes. A note to her:

Hope you will remain hopeful to be with your loved one. Let's forget our own unhappiness and have a place in our hearts for each other on this Valentine's Day.

A Long Wait plus Sorry......

I called her last night wanting to have a chat as always. Didn't know that she had just got home. She wanted to have a bath first and I agreed to wait for her. Timing was 10.15 pm. While waiting, the thought came to my mind. Earlier when she asked me if I could call, was she still outside and wished to speak to me on the way back? I thought I may have overlooked that point, and replied that I could only call later. I guessed she was alone without any company. Nice thought for her to want me to speak to her. My body has been failing me, since I fell sick last week. As I waited, I DOZED off.

What can I say? I am SORRY for causing you to wait 2 long hours for my return call. In the end, I got your good night sms immediately after I sent u an sms at 1.10am. You must be fuming with your indication of "2 long hours". I hope to call tomorrow night to hear about your matters, if you still wish to speak to me. Meanwhile, please don't lose faith in your friend for letting all these things happened. To prevent this from happening in future, please do ring my mobile if you do encounter a wait of > 10 mins without any reply from either sms or call. I am more than happy to pick up your call, even if I am sleeping. Sleep tight and hope I appear in your dreams.

Am I wrong??

The time was 8.15pm. R was finalising my final accounts before submission to management for review. The secretary, S, was busy drafting her letters. I had slight migraine, due to work stress and long hours of computing work. The conversation started...
R said, "Lets make a move at 8.45pm".
S said, "I still have some letters to finish, most probably 9pm".
R's reply is, "Ok, I shall wait for you till 9 pm and leave together".
Time passed swiftly.....
At 9 pm, R was packing up his stuff and ready to leave the office. R said, "It is 9 already. Time to go back". S still had unfinished work, but she started to pack her things in a rough manner. R thought why she had to react that way? Didn't R followed her timing to leave or it wasn't good enough for her? Either way, both left the office and silence followed them along the way home.

Will it become true??

Having cold sweat after I awaken. Both of us were walking, and my ex approached us. She mentioned that she would resort to any means to ensure that we won't be together. Why would she still want to hinder my life? I have highlighted before that if we broke up one day, I would never turn back to the relationship anymore. On the other hand, did it mean that I won't have a future with this girl? I sincerely hope the latter was not true. Had to return to sleep for my classes in the morning.

First House Visit

The main programme for today was to pay a visit to paul's house at 1.30pm. It was saddening to say that it was my first visit to his house for as long as we knew each other. In the early hours, I was expecting a guest coming to my place as well. Afraid that she could be lost along the way, I offered to pick her up at the nearest location she suggested. Since I am in possession of my bro's car for the whole day, I should put it to good use. She hit it off quite well with my parents, though it was the first visit. My parents' impression of her was rather ok, as my mum has made some food for her tasting. I guessed my mum was wanting to hear some good comments for her own skills again. While I was online, I read about Darl's injury from a hamster's bite. Felt so sad that even a hamster can do harm to her. Everything should like her instead. Please disinfect and heal the wound properly ok?

At 1pm, I saw my guest off and went to pick both Darl and Krys along the way to Paul's place. I tink Darl would make a good street directory guide. Haha. We didn't get lost on our 1st visit. We were the first to reach and everyone was hungry for lunch. Cant wait any longer and we helped ourselves to the food. Thank you to Paul and family for being very kind hosts. I couldn't resist the chicken from KFC and had some despite my sickness. Everyone was teasting me about how auntie was paying special attention to me the whole time. I guessed Paul must have mentioned many of my things to her, which explained why she cared for me. At 5.45pm, we had to make a move, as I offered to give Krys a ride to Westmall for her appointment. After which, I went to the hilltop at Jurong Bird Park to relax my mind while standing in the strong winds. Darl was busy snapping pictures with the nice scenery. Afterwhich, I had to drop her off at Clementi and went home directly. Came back and took the medicine prescribed to me, which made me drowsy. I mentioned about my ex being replaced in my heart by someone else. I just wanted to voice out things to someone close. While awaitng for the beep, the cough medicine has disabled my body and I dozed off for a while.

Down Finally

Today has its significance, of which I reported sick during work for the first time in 3 years. I had dragged myself to work for half a day, but I told myself that I should visit the doctor to seek treatment. Serious running nose, frequent sneezes as well. I could sense other colleagues avoiding me to escape infection. I walked in my M's room and highlighted of my intention to visit the doc at noontime. I can see in her eyes that she knew I had overworked and health was deteriorating. She had witnessed my work since I joined and always used me as an example to other colleagues. But, I did let her know that everyone's reality will not be like my situation. I was still worried about my fren being troubled last night. Gave her a call to find out if she was ok. A big relief that she had not intend to avoid me permanently. Got some pointers from her to take note if such a situation ever arise again. During lunchtime, I visited the clinic at Dawson Place. The doctor was using the stethoscope all over my upper body. I wondered if I am so serious ill. Haha. The results were lungs, heart and pulse were all ok. Then what I got was some medicine and half day to rest myself well. Headed home after purchasing 2 pieces of bread for lunch. I was joking about buying the other piece for her. Hehe. Had a good nap after consuming my medicine. However, sms still flying to and fro like never before. I got back my appetite for a proper dinner and went over to my grandma's place. Grandpa was asking if I wanted to know a girl living in their block. I just replied that fate will determined who I will end up with. Picked up my brother's car, after my uncle has finished using. Goodness gracious that he topped up full tank and stil got a summon for not placing a coupon. Came back searching for my digi cam and discovered someone took it without asking. Blood pressure started to rise, but I could manage it. Called her to have a routine chat, sharing some topics to liven things up. A little thought for Valentine's day has been arranged.

No more backups

I was relieved that my friend was back in the office. I have being backing up others' work since last thursday. Having throat inflammation and slight coughing, since I woke up. All the new year goodies were having its effect on me. I was surprised to find the letter which I submitted back on my desk, after I am back from my morning rounds. Why would it come back to me? Was it not good enough? I brought it back to my M and she clarified that she left it on my desk by mistake. It was quite embarrassing though. Back from lunch, I sms her to see if she was doing fine. My nose was starting to run as well. Metabolism was going low, and just carried on with work slowly. Hanged on till 7.30 pm to call it a day. She asked me to join her on the train, as she was going out. As it was along the way home, I met her in the first cabin. Saw her in another different outfit. Nice. She alighted at her destination, while I carried on the journey. The situation reminded me of how I used to meet ling to go back together. Time has passed rapidly without her. I grew stronger from the aftermath and hoped history will not repeat itself. I was reading about a love letter and had my own inner thoughts. I deleted all the previous emails which I wrote for my past relationship. After all, the wordings were too nice to believe and things never actually happened. I am just deceiving myself to retain them. Tears started to roll, as I listened to the song "All by Myself" by Jamie O'Neal.

28 days Countdown

After a long rest, this was the first day of work after the lunar new year. Early morning, the managers had come in to welcome the lion dance. It has been a tradition over the years to bring good blessings. I almost got a fright when the lion approached me to give me blessings. I was concentrating too hard on my work probably. Time passes swiftly and lunch was catered for by the company. Not a bad caterer being engaged, as many enjoyed their food. Around 2 pm, there was an urgent money draft to prepare for remittance to the US. The M asked me to tag along, so that I could provide the details if there was a need to. The processing time by DBS required 30 mins and we had coffee at Anchorpoint to kill off the waiting time. Had a heart to heart talk with M, stating some things which I tink she should be aware of the recent staff turnover. I hope the company can provide better working conditions for the new staff they hired. She also shared some insights on the political scene within the dept. She knew me well enough to know why I really wished to go and offered her best wishes. Back in the office after collecting the money draft, I brought the letter to submit in. My M was glad that I had opted not to offset my remaining leave against my 1 mth period. She compromised on paying me for the unused leave, which I felt comfortable with. The company server shutting down at 7.30 pm, which explained my early arrival at home.

Nokia 6260 demise, Motorola V3i emerges

This morning I woke up pondering on whether my mobile should be going to the scrapyard. It has been performing below par, as I have to charge 4 times in the past 4 days. Seems battery life has been unstable and phone hanged sometimes. I was browsing the M1 webpage for other models. I think I should not be going for the low-end ones anymore. I had several options on hand:
1) Sony Ericsson W900i
2) Motorola V3i
3) Nokia 8800
I did some cashflow calculations and managed to set a budget of $800, nothing more but the lesser the merrier. I went to the M1 shop at Westmall to view the above models and requested some info about purchasing each models based on different situations. Most of the situations either exceeded my budget or upgrading of existing plan was needed. I had an intention to jump ship to Starhub, when my M1 contract has lapsed. The reason is I will enjoy hubber bonus for having the mobile line, to go with my Maxonline and MaxTV. Hence, upgrading of plan is a no no. The final decision is Motorola V3i. Considering trade-in as the best alternative, I would actually get a rebate of $250 for the N6260. Although it has been with me for over a year, it was parting time. Haha. The intention was to purchase it at full retail price less my trade-in. When it was my turn to be served, the sales officer recommended that I purchased the phone with the M kit. This would further reduce the overall costs by another $35. I thought I looked too honest for her not to recommend such a nice offer. :p Without hesitation, I accepted the offer and surrendered over my N6260. Within less than 20 mins, I am finished with the procedures and got my new mobile. Yuppie. Came home playing with the functions and familiarise myself with the keystrokes via smsing with my fren. I hope this phone would not disappoint me, as I never held a Motorola model in my entire mobile life. For the time being, I would be pining my hopes on you.

Really Fearless???

Based on the life of Martial Artsmaster Huo Yuanjia (1868-1910), this biopic is set during the late 1800's to early 1900's, a pivotal period in China's history, when the whole country is shrouded under increasing internal turmoil and the imminent threat of foreign invasion. Huo Yuanjia begins the story as a cocky, young Martial Arts practitioner with only one thing in his mind, to become the best at his craft at all costs. His quest eventually leads to a tragedy when he mistakenly kills an opponent whose disciples consequently slaughter Huo's whole family for revenge. A distraught and heartbroken Huo flees to the countryside, determined to abandon everything he ever wanted and believed in. He then spends considerable time in a remote mountain village anonymously, where he relearned all the things that matter in life while taking refuge with an old lady and her half blind granddaughter. He returns to the city to make amends with his turbulent past, and gets swept up in a violent, fight to the death Martial Arts tournament to defend China's honor against foreign aggressors.

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I had to catch this movie by myself, as all my siblings were happily gambling. I don't find the joy of playing cards with so many people cramped around one table. From the title of the film, you should expect the leading actor to be fearless. But, it was not the case. He was actually afraid of losing, which explained his route to being undefeated. After he lost his family just to exact revenge for his disciple, he found that he had not heed his mum's advice on practising wushu. He regained himself in a village life. Soonafter, he remedied what he has done wrong by fighting for the pride of all chinese. The fighting scenes were the more captivating aspects of this near 2 hours long movie. While in the theatre, there was a couple kissing in front of me during the screening. I was thinking maybe both of them chose the wrong film and location. Nonetheless, I enjoyed the film with a hotdog combo to go along. An sms from her to make my choice of a pig, piglet or her. The reply was obviously her. Haha. Dunno how she was blushing to see my reply.

Sleepless night

Took a nap in last evening to help me to keep awake for the night. The beep sms to call came. I tried all the numbers possible, but couldn't reach her. Her house number was the last alternative and discovered that she was not in. My heart started pounding. It was a mere 10 mins from the sms to my call and she cant be contacted. Was there something urgent, which she has to attend to? Did something happen to her? At 1.33am, I sent one sms. At 3.30am, I sent another. I have reached my limit, and had to close my eyes. Every hour, I would take a peep of any incoming sms. But, there was nothing. At the time of this posting, I have not hear from her. I hope she is alright and not make me worry further. Hope to get her reply soon.

Happy Lunar New Year!!!

Welcome to the Year of Dog. Though I am not with the girl, I hope her life will prosper in her year. See how lovely the 2 doggies are? Too bad I am not one of them. Haha. I was awaken in the early hours to get prepared for an annual temple visit at Zion Road. If anyone of you know of this pic?? The duration took about an hour, before we made our way to my grandma's place. My grandpa sat beside me as I was munching the goodies on display. Suddenly, he said, "Why ur relationship of 4 years just ended?" My mind was a total blank. I know my grandparents didn't expect it to happen. All I responded was, "The situation was quite different from that of yours and grandma. If things cant work out, there is always an ending." It was a relief that there was no visitor, otherwise I could hear all the nasty things from the 三姑六婆. I wish they could understand my predicament and let the matter rest. At noon, we travelled in my bro's car to my big aunt's place in Yishun. We waited and waited, but only my 3rd aunt's family dropped by. Seems rather quiet, but we understand that the reason for my 2nd aunt's family absence. Came home at about 5 pm, and I went to purchase Mac for my family's dinner. Witnessed my brother abusing his gf again. Why she has to be so submissive to him? I am still questioning myself, but I won't interfere in their matters. The break will happen someday, which I am positive of. I had the Chicken Fantastic value meal, and felt the taste is still ok despite hearing negative feedback from others. Another day has passed swiftly and I am still waiting for her beep to call.

Working CNY Eve

Why does my working saturday has to fall on CNY eve? To make things worse, it seems a lot of people is not around. Performing multiple backups for half a day. Its rather an unbalanced arrangement, as my alternate saturday only has 3 pax, compared to 7 in the other shift. I just have to make do with what I can cope with. There are 2 customers' cars to be delivered by the sales today, and I have to prepare the documents also. I forgot to submit a statistics survey for the Singapore Dept of Statistics, which I hope my submission today would still be helpful. Lunch has been catered for everyone by the company, which could at least solve my hunger till reunion dinner at night. I agreed to pick up the goodies prepared for me from her, before I came home. Appreciate her effort to prepare those and my mum was asking me who gave those. I tink she would have guessed it, but just a confirmation needed. But, I was only smiling to her. I had to try those tomorrow, as I am quite full after the heavy lunch. Had a simple reunion dinner, but I didn't consume much. My eldest brother is not in SG for the new year for the 2nd year in running. I am wondering how many years it will be like this. Went to withdraw some money for the household and bought some satay along the way back. I have been working hard and didn't spend much time with my family, so it's a small gesture to show some appreciation of their support of my work and studies.

Crazy but consolation

Anyone is wondering where I was the last 2 days? I had been caught in office facing stacks of work. I came into the office today, hoping things wont turn bad. Both my seniors are not around, which means I am the next backup for both of them. I had applied for half day leave to see my fren, as well as to relax myself. The whole week has been chaotic, and this break was a much needed one. The half day before noon was so packed, that I am sighing every 5 mins. I guessed all my good colleagues were worried for me. I am always trying my best to do whatever I can, even when I know I cant. God has to bless me for working so hard.
In the noon at 1pm, I was in a rush to meet her. But, my FC held me back to do something urgent again. Why must it always happen when I hope nothing will? I was fuming, but keeping cool to finish it for her. She just won't understand why I am so determined to go. She can enter the office at 11am every morning and expect people to rush things for her. Even my lunchtime was jeopardised on several occasions due to her. I met her at the platform as always, and saw her new look. She had done it for the new year, which I felt its different. Girls like to have a different hairdo every new year. Hehe. We went to the restaurant that we both wished to try the food. It is usually packed on weekends, but we got in relatively easy. Wanted to try almost everything on the menu, but it was too much for both of us. My appetite has a certain limit, and work has spoilt it further. Wondered why the food was attracting her to taste it like in a commercial ad? After filling our tummy, we went for some window shopping to see what she is lacking for this new year. I am contented with what I have bought last week. At one moment, I mentioned I was admiring her feet more than what she was trying on. Haha. She smiled while turning away. We ended up at Raffles City to have our dinner. It was a long walk from our starting location, but I couldn't feel it with her around. We both agreed that the half day seems like a full day spent together. I couldn't see her home, but she understood that it was pretty late. I have to work even on CNY eve. Is God trying to kill my work passion?

What is she teaching???

It was pretty chaotic at work, as the despatch failed to deposit all the cheques and cash. It will be a big headache, as the total was about $2M. I bet my FC will be jumping on everyone's head, if she comes to know about it. That's the problem for reducing 2 despatch to 1, and expect him to be ultra efficient. I tink he must be in the same predicament as I am. I just give up on trying further, thats all. For my own matters, I couldn't wait any longer for the delay. I had to rush to class, but my mind is unrest. Should I go or should I stay? Called the sales personnel to pick up their own cases. Took a taxi down to Starhub Cuppage for my classes. As I enter the classroom, it was already packed. Had to settle down and gobble down my sandwich. I love chicken mayonnaise. Today's topic is rather complex based on previous experiences. To make things worse, the lecturer actually assumed we had a strong foundation. It was just a lame excuse to make your life easier. We paid for your lectures, u know? The lesson ended to my half-hearted understanding. I have plentiful work and study to catch up. Setting some challenges for tomorrow.

Blues Blues

Felt refreshed after a relaxing weekend, hoping that this week will pass by swiftly. I have a goal on friday to work towards, which might require more effort in this earlier half of the week. Had to prepare the weekly report for submission and processed several customers' cases on hand for registration. I believe my fellow sales colleagues know that they are on their own from now on, as I started showing them signs of reluctance to cater to everyone. I had provided too much time for their work, which resulted in my own accounts being put to a halt. No one will understand my passion for accounting work. My deadline I set for myself is to finish it before CNY. After CNY, a new chapter would begin. Stayed in office till 10pm, but no cab in sight to hail. Instead, a hired cab stopped to pick me up. Rather weird to encounter this. Nonetheless, I just wanted to get home quickly. She was out meeting people, but still replied my sms. Waiting to call her to know that she has reached home safely.

Busy like a Bee

Playing basketball early morning and met new opponents on the ground. Had great matchups one after another, but my team actually triumph in many situations. I guessed we were firing from all cylinders. Came back home and heard my mum mentioning about doing spring cleaning. As always, my brothers try to avoid by running out. Seeing my parents in a dismay, I offered to scrub all the floor tiles in the house myself. At the same time, they will be drying up the wet floor once I have scrubbed. Not an easy task, but it is the least I can do for them during weekends. At 2.30 pm, I have cleared the cleaning and planned to run some errands. To shorten the travelling time, I requested to use my bro's car. Why he agreed so willingly? Very funny, but I found out that his petrol tank was near empty when I started the engine. So, I had no choice but to top up $20 worth of petrol for him. I went to pass some goodies to my fren, then to Jurong Point to shop for my pants. Time was so tight, that I entered and exit John Little in a mere 10 mins. In total, I bought some socks, a belt and 2 pairs of pants. It costs a neat $78, which I feel is worthwhile. After that, the tailor just below my block had to alter my pants before I can wear them. Just barely made it home at 5.30pm, which is my deadline. However, no one is getting ready to go for the reunion dinner. I am very upset that all my elders are behaving like small kids and making a fuss out of things. I forced everyone to attend regardless of their stupid excuses. End of the dinner, I had to go back alone via MRT but she was there to accompany me using her sms. I think I said a lot of things which may confuse or trouble her, but with one intention that she will be happy always. As for me, I am just another ordinary guy to appear in her life. If those things did touched her heart, it would be pleasant. If it didn't, let those become a memory to be kept forever.

Lovely Saturday

It has been quite a while, since I had a pre-arrangement to meet up with a fren on a saturday. Without her, I would be returning to office to work. Haha. We met up at 12 pm on the mrt platform which we always do. Listening to radio station 933 and its broadcasting all the sad songs. Feel like tears wanted to start rolling. There she appears in front of me, and my smile to her just surfaced. We reached our destination and went to have our lunch at a westernised restaurant. Having cosy seats to go along with our lunch, it was a nice relaxation to start off our weekend. I wanted to cover the bill due to a performance incentive given by my M recently. I didn't expect the payout to me, as I have given notice of my intention to leave. But, my M was certain that my efforts in 2005 should be rewarded. We went for a movie as planned. After that, a brief walk around the mall, and came across a handphone sling, which I found slightly unique. She mentioned that it has been popular for quite sometime back, but I just didn't notice it. She was searching for something else, and I waited outside the shop for her. A while later, she wanted to see how my mobile was like. Then, she took out from her wallet the same sling, which I had a fancy for. I was speechless, though it was only a small item. I attached it while she went to the ladies. She was taking some photos along the walkway and noticed this sling dangling out from my pouch. Hehe. She was meeting someone else in the evening, which I agreed to walk her there. We parted but the time since we met seems so long ago. I went to chinatown to get some bbq pork for the new year before taking the train home.

Email surprise

My hands were full of document handling, until I saw an email with the subject "Lets Meet Up". The sender was none other than her. Seems lady luck has been smiling on me, ever since the sadness has subsided. I wish I am not dreaming. It was an invitation to join her for dinner, which I had mentioned the night before. Actually, it should be an overtime workday. I couldn't bear to reject her, which resulted in my acceptance. Time passes, and shortly before knock off, I was jammed by sales personnel again. A total crack down and I shouted "Ahhhhhh". Everyone was so stunned by my actions, as I am cool-headed in managing my work. Didnt want to be bothered anymore, and I packed things up to meet her. Seeing her crossing the road, and I feel so relaxed. We had a long walk to our dining place, enjoying the atmosphere and her company. The meal was filling, but the moment spent together was more precious. I walked her home as usual, and headed home soon after. Reaching home, we continued our conversation from where we left off earlier.

Rush for time

My mind was tuned to work, as I have unfinished work all lying on my desk. Having classes tonight, and saw a sms reminder at 4.30pm about knocking off on the dot. Thanks for it, but it didnt serve much help due to last min matters which block my exit. The SM started to pester me for the COE bidding form. I did some costing for those cases and made some sales personnel topup for their customers. They hate me everytime I do costing. Haha. Composed email to remind them to start working on their cases. Anyone who chooses to slack will have a tougher time from me than before, though I am still the nice me. :) Did admin matters, but couldn't do my accounts. Why is my life so messed up by work? I do accounts due to my liking for figures, but couldn't concentrate on it. The days are counting and the managers are not acting on my advance notice. If my guess is right, they will suffer more if they persist. Is it so hard to get someone in for me to hand over my things properly? Had lesson proper in the evening, but work has drained my brainpower. She is waiting for my call, once I am back home.

Little Tots

Saw a recent photo taken by a group. Never knew they were still in contact, but I guess I am being avoided. No reply sms, no reply email. I tried many ways but nothing happened. How did things turn out this manner? There was a meeting in the noon, but I was left out. What does it mean? Came home from work and was expecting someone. However, she has no response. Tried to sms and call, but to no avail. I hope everything was fine with her, and she knew I was looking high n low for her. Maybe, she was just tired. Started to recall what I said last night. Seemed like I was possessed. Can anyone judge me by my cover or by knowing me further? My fav quote is "You never know me until u really know me". I am a genuine person, but always got misunderstood. Maybe my questions were too demanding or harsh. I didnt know if I should be asking in the first place. Likewise, I don't wish to be labelled a kaypoh. Things are certainly not moving, but I hope I can be of any help.

Taxing Sunday

Moved out from my home at 8.30am, hoping there won't be hiccups for my journey to Starhub Cuppage. So early, yet so packed in the train. It didn't matter as I was alone listening to my dance mp3. Reached centrepoint around 9.20am and still got time for a quick breakfast at Mac. A long time since i had Mac breakfast. Looking at a diet article and discovered so much fats content in the whole menu. Nevertheless, it is still my fav fast food restaurant since I was born. Savouring the aroma of the coffee makes me awake for my lessons at 10am. Another 6 hours of lecture awaiting my attendance. The classroom was filled with all ladies and I was the first guy to arrive early. Took the usual seat and got my notes out to wait for the lesson to start. Paul arrived shortly. Lesson proper and the chapter is an exciting one about foreign sourced income and the tax reliefs available. Didn't manage to grasp this topic since i started studying tax. Lunch break and Paul was getting ready to go. We had to fill our tummy at the food court on the 2nd floor. My sense of taste was fading and it is an indication that Mr Sick would be coming to visit me. Paul finished his lunch and was happily on the phone talking to a she. Didn't know who it was, but he was smiling. After I finished my meal, I got him to start heading back to classroom and he was still on the line. I was tired and didn't want to talk to the person on his mobile though he insisted. Seated at my desk, I saw her sms that she was sad that I didnt want to talk to her. Didnt quite get the meaning, as I would be happy to speak to her. I asked Paul who was on the line and he told me. Made a mistake about the person's identity and apologised to her. Class ended at 5 pm and I took bus no. 106 to go home. Many passengers on board, managed to secure a seat and caught some sleep throughout. A few hours to spend before my bedtime and I read her blog to try to know more about what went wrong. From whatever I can analyse, I think the guy is playing an excellant role in the courtship, but where is the wrong move? How about myself? Can I play a better role? I failed before, but will I fail again? Some thoughts which I can't answer for myself...

Mystery Solved

Had to tackle 7 vehicles to be delivered by today and it was no laughing matter. Trying to prepare the invoices in time for a timely delivery. An email notification popped up. The sender was her. Another short message to keep me going for the half day. I hoped she would be available after she is done with her things. Still trying to recall what the mystery thing was that I am supposed to receive. Had a weird instruction from M to sign on the invoices which I issued. Asked several times before if M wants to sign, and pushed back to me in the end. Had an argument with the despatch about missing deposit slips, but kept my cool to resolve the issue. Served the sales who were dying to deliver their vehicles, and got compliments for my systematic handling of documents. Hope it will be an example to them to make the future person's job easier. At 3.20pm, my mobile was ringing. Hearding her voice was smoothing and relaxing. I asked if she wanted to meet up, since it was time for me to knock off to go home. We wanted to try Harbourfront, since we both haven't taken our lunch. Along the way, I asked if my guess of the mystery item was right and saw her shy reaction. Had pasta and pizza @ Pastamania, but my taste bug wasn't working well. Hehe. But, I selected the right choice of spagetti for her. Nice try. Left to walk around the mall, after a big noisy group came. A short while later, I walked her home from our present location. It was a long walk, but surely not as long as the Great Wall of China. The time could not be more well-spent, than idling at home after a day's work. Have to prepare notes for tomorrow class.

Friday the 13th

This day was meant to be unlucky for me from past experiences. I was expecting to see an email in my office when I arrived. Opened my mailbox eagerly to see if that sender's name was there. The message was slightly longer, but I am contented jus to see a simple email. A sales colleague was asking about her mum's home cooked food, which she offered me for my dinner last night. I was teasing if her mum did asked who the food was intended for. I was grateful to her for saving my hunger and wished for more to come. Had a long chat about managing people with my AM. He mentioned that some people are a pain in the neck and tough managing them. Being a friend and holding a higher position, it is very hard to insist on things when you consider friendship. I am facing this situation myself and is learning to cope with it. Too focused on my work without knowing that it's time to knocked off. Ignoring my friends who joked about my staying back, I just carried on. When my FC is about to leave, I would be helping her to carry her things to her car. However, I was discussing things with a sales girl at the same moment. Never will I expect to hear my FC telling her to wait until I have helped her carried her things!! It is very ridiculous for a pioneer to command respect, when you don't respect your own staff. I did not have much choice, since she is my top. When I returned from the errand, the sales girl consoled me for being in a tough position. I am becoming more upset and an early submission is hovering in my mind. Sms my fren about this matter and received immediate response. I was told to go back early to rest, but tomorrow is not a half day for me anymore.

Surprises after surprises

While opening my office email, a surprise email came from a close friend. A morning well wishes coming from someone who has fasten my heartbeat before. Never thought that I would be able to see it even in office. A little thought which would be encouraging to me. Had several phone calls from sales executives rushing me to help them to register their customers' vehicles. Even they felt that I am a new man. Perhaps I should be appearing on New Man Magazine soon. Haha. They all learned about my breakup previously and the huge impact that hit me. I am one who wont like to hide my feelings from within. But, they never expect to see a change from my quiet personality to a friendly one. When did I start to smile to others who stressed me? Perhaps from my fren's influence to smile always. I see my life coming to a turning point. It was a dark tunnel previously, but I managed to find a exit from it. Received a call from an unexpected person in the noon and was shocked again. How did she manage to locate me? But, it couldn't have come at a better timing. It was touching to know that she has the thought of looking for me. Cheers. In the evening, I had a short conversation with my FC, who asked me about my gf suddenly. Hesitated for a moment, but told her the facts. She understood that it was tough to recover from it. But, I got her well wishes to further my studies. Got a few phone calls to remind me to go back early. I have never got such sweet reminders in the past.....

Head or Heart Aches???

Reaching office at the usual time and started organising my things well to get me going. Plenty of unfinished work, but my mood was unusual. Sighing was my norm in this situation. However, I smiled looking at the stack and just sat down to clear folders after folders. Sales started to picked up and the GM was glad that I am back to coordinate things. Got his understanding that I need time to backtrack things before I can furnish him with the appropriate info. At noon time, I had murtabak for lunch. Jus wanted to try something different. Sms fren to see how things are going on. There is something which keeps me smiling, regardless of the frustrations that I faced. My lunch buddies were saying I started 2006 as a different person. I think the thought of letting things take its course is coming to my mind and my smile is due to the removal of the bottleneck. But, I will complete my things before I say goodbye. My FC asked me about my intention to go, and I ascertained that I have never been more decisive. Left office waiting for taxi under heavy rain. Sms fren to highlight that the floor is slippery and be careful.

Reporting for Duty

Got on the train at 7.40 am at my station to head for Queenstown. Alighted and took a stroll to Komoco Building (Hyundai). It has been a week since my day will start like this. I like the feeling of looking smart in office wear, especially due to my profession. I was thinking of how my colleagues are missing my presence in the office. Rather foolish, as everyone cares for themselves. A relief to see my work desk neat and tidy, except for a fully stacked in-tray. I learnt that the sales has been held to a standstill, as they never got the chance to approach my colleague to help in the admin matters. I sympathized them, though I knew they deserved that for not being independent. Being the Mr Nice guy that I am in their eyes, I called their supervisor to arrange for each sales person to see me in an orderly manner to allow me to better focus on individual cases. Very messy indeed, but had to clear it regardless of the time required. Got an email from a fren informing us of his last day with us, and I wished him luck.
Received a call to meet up in the evening. It was sweet. With that in mind, I motivated myself to speed up clearing the rest of the work. My belief is if you have a goal, you will achieve more. At about 6.30pm, I was rushing for time and had to leave via taxi. Before leaving, I remembered about bringing my windbreaker due to cold weather. Got to my destination and went around to shop for CNY clothings while waiting. Waited and played with sms to kill time. Saw a few couples having arguments, and recalled my past memories. I got some CNY cards to prepare for mailing to my friends. Have you got yours? I always make use of CNY to remember that valentine's day is shortly after it. But, I have no more valentine. I hope I won't crack down looking at couples on 14 Feb. Met my fren around 7.45pm and had a quick but filling dinner. It was the first time I met up wearing office wear, wondering if I am presentable. Haha. As the night was early and tomorrow is a public holiday, we went for a movie together, which ended around 11pm. Decided to see her home, as it is dangerous for a person to be walking alone at such late hours. Managed to catch all the last trains to give me a smooth ride home. Reaching home, everyone was sleeping soundly, Made a phone call and did a declaration, which I didnt know if it is right or wrong. I just wanted to let it off my chest. I hope it won't result in a bad consequence.

End of a love story

The day was 23 Sep 2001. A guy approached a girl having know her for a few months. They were walking along a quiet walkway outside Marina Square. Suddenly, he held her hands and she wept. From then on, every single meeting was special. They tried to develop a future together, and things were smooth till the guy came out of NS. It was 22 Feb 2003. He got a decent job with her encouragement and took on his part time degree course. He saved and work hard, hoping for a nice future with her. Within the next two years, frequent disagreements and quarrels surfaced. Everytime the topic of marriage popped up, she was reluctant to discuss and avoided it. She has the youth and wanted to enjoy more singlehood. He always dream of having a family of his own and makes plans for the future. A clash of objectives. She wanted all good things to evolve around her. He was just a shadow, following and supporting her all along. Both felt like giving up, as things got out of hand. On 6 Nov 2005, they agreed to go on separate ways. This marked the next stage of their lives. He felt that it would be better if she can live more happily. She also wanted him to forget about her and find a better girl. It was after 2 months on 7 Jan 2006 that he read about a posting of a dedication with a rose to this girl. It was extremely disheartening. Did she accept another relationship so shortly after the previous one of 4 years has just ended? The nice words that she left behind could only be a deceit. Maybe the new guy has appeared way before they ended and the relationship would not have dragged on. Only she knows..........

What Does You Birth Month Reveal About You?

September
Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and
organized. Likes to point out people's
mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet
but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and
sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but
not always honest. Does work well. Very
confident. Sensitive. Thinking generous. Good
memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look
for information. Must control oneself when
criticizing. Able to motivate oneself.
Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive.
Loves sports, leisureand traveling. Hardly
shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings.
Very choosy, especially in relationships.
Systematic.

Steaming on Rainy Day

In the morning. I witnessed my dad shouting at my bro and his gf for over usage of utilities for the month of Dec. Ever since his gf stayed at our place, we noticed the bill was escalating month after month. But, December was the worst. Water usage went up 75% more than the previous month, whereas electricity was 50% more. The reason for that was clear to everyone. I cant blame my dad for blowing his top, since they both are taking things for granted. I am always on my own without anyone bothering me. Haha.

The weather became temperamental in the noon and had showers occasionally. I had to meet my camp buddies for a steamboat dinner as scheduled. The location was Bugis Genuine Chong Qin Steamboat. We had a great time sharing the silly situations each of us met while in camp. It seems that place is rather popular among chinese nationals. I was ignorant of their spoken language, which could be from one of china provinces I guessed. The bill came and they overcharged us for 1 pax, which was discovered by me. This is the benefit for having an accounts personnel around. The food was so so, but we had to depart for home shortly after 8 pm. Hehe.

Reached home and worked through my daily cash flow. I found that the amounts owing by others have been stagnant and did some debt collection reminders via sms. Cash will be of utmost importance for the subsequent few months, which explains my close monitoring and controls.

Big Bang for 2006

Just got back home from a gruelling 4 days reservist. Time to get updates from reading everyone's blogs. Darl, Rebec and Paul all have pretty heavy emotions when I was away. As I always will say, stay calm and solve any problem with a quiet mind. I know carrying it out is not simple in many circumstances, but I wish everyone can tide over their problems and stay close in times of need. I shall be documenting down my past few days happenings to share:

3 Jan (In Processing Day)

I reached camp early at 7.30 and was directed to the exact reporting location. Upon reaching destination, I found that the directional signs had messed up by leading people to a big u turn, instead of a direct way. Too bad I am a victim already. Haha. And carrying my big load for such a distance is no laughing matter. Had a lot of admin matters such as room and equipment allocation to process and briefings occurs continously one after another. Had a good sleep and expecting more to come.

4 Jan (IPPT and IMT Day)

We had to gather for our IPPT at 7.30 am sharp. However, the programme was delayed due to many not cooperating well enough. It is understandable, as many is learning to adapt to the early hours of waking up. I had my fair shot at passing the test, but I guessed my body conditioning was not good enough to yield the results. In the noon, we had a practice on the computer shooting simulator to get everyone accustomised to the actual day sequence. It was more like an arcade for everyone to get serious matters off your mind. It was raining heavily and we hope for tomorrow is a sunny one.

5 Jan (Range Day)

Today is our combat shooting day. The package was a special one, which everyone have not attempted in our NS days. In the past, everything is about individual performance. Today, a group of six have to excel together to get similar results. Imagine your pals having to engage targets for u when u are short of bullets. My good pals and I were in the same group and we had a lot of trust in one another. The shoot has day and night tests, which will determine a marksmanship team after the total score is out. I had a nice day shoot results, hitting all 15 targets given with all my 15 rounds. My team mates were all hoping our group can hit marksmanship. But the night shoot was unbelieveable. It was a horrible one and everyone were demoralised by our own shooting. We were all trying to find our targets, but visibly was so low and most of us just could engage any. It was a nice team effort, but disappointing results. This is the team spirit that I always wanted in all the things I do.

6 Jan (Out Processing Day)

This is my last day with my camp mates. We will miss the good times together, and carry on our civilian lives for about 7 mths till we meet again. I am having a gathering with 5 camp mates for our post reservist celebrations tomorrow, which we failed to have last year. Thanks to everyone for the good memories every incamp. Haha.

Welcome 2006!!

Mishappenings in 2005
- Collapsed due to enormous work stress and made a decisive move to change it.
- 4 yrs relationship failure leading to befriending new friends along the route of recuperation.
- Struggled with studies, even though a plan was in place. Must recitfy my bad planning.

Resolutions for 2006
- Another tough year ahead, but be optimistic and positive about things.
- Make more friends if possible, not forgetting friends who stood by me and brought me out of depression.
- Must give my best shot to finish my studies with my pal, Paul. We share the same thoughts, so we shall complement n support each other. He has stronger financial backing, while I hope I wont run out of monetary resources. Haha.

Work has come to an end, with my reservist starting on 3 Jan for a week. I wont be blogging if I am staying in camp. I will have my mobile with me, so anyone can leave me a sms if you tink of me. Hehe. Perhaps, I will have to visit the toilet and reply while in toilet cubicle. You never know how many silly things can happen. The training program is catered for a range shooting, and I shall have fun with my army mates. Busy packing things for the day and meeting my friends tomorrow.